It won't be long until we near the end of 2016, a year of good and bad for many people including myself. One of the biggest changes I've noticed this year was about myself, and all I can about that is this....

I don't like him.

It feels as though I had lost track of who I am, becoming overly aggressive or defensive at the slightest sign of trouble. This also applies to my interactions with individuals in the community whom I had strong disagreements with, where I act or responded to them in such a way that may of been considered to be inappropriate or immature, chances are you may have seen this in some of the journals I wrote earlier this year. Another thing that bother me is how I have been treating some of my friends and fur-family in this community. I don't believe that I've treated them very kindly this year which saddens me, I've felt as that I haven't showed my appreciation for them when they are there for me and there have been times where I have I acted in a way that I am not proud of towards them, this in itself must change.

Now to be clear, is not some kind of self-hating journal. I know I can improve from this as I have been a better person before. But I can't improve as a person unless I know what I've done wrong and that is the purpose of this journal, to compile everything I need to improve on so I can form goals to aim for in the future. From the time this journal is submitted, I will aim to improve myself as a person by acting in a manner that is more mature and not let little things get to me in the same way they have been previously. And most importantly I want to show my appreciation more, especially to my friends and fur-family who have shown me a lot of love over the last year. The last thing I'd ever want is to lose them, so I have to show them that I do care about them deeply and not allow myself in act in a way that would suggest otherwise or take them for granted.

So yeah, just some self-reflection and ways for self-improvement for myself. It's always good for me to create one of this things so I can figure out where I am going wrong and what I need to do to fix that. With these goals written, I will be able to implement them from now on so I can improve myself future. :)