One of the hardest things to do in life is letting go of something you felt was real. Work & social wise in past recent months have just been one disappointment after another.

I've been accused of some awful things such as using people & sleeping around being the worst of them.
Its hard to heal when someone you cared about deeply has turned their back on you after years of happiness & support given.

Life goes on despite the hurt & cruel blows I've dealt with.

Those who feel nothing by causing pain to others must be very lonely & sad people themselves. Perhapes bc they are void of happiness themselves they see fit to destroy others to feel better about themselves, who knows.

I may never get an apology, they'll never see the tears shed, they might never feel any remorse for what they did but even though its been damaged & ripped apart I still have a heart that in time will recover & every new day will be a step towards getting better.

I have a pretty major op coming up so despite wanting to hide away, curl up & cry I have to make preperations for that & what Im going to do self care wise after Im discharged.

It'll be a long road & wont be easy but all I can do is pick myself up, pick up the pieces & go on.
Though I want to, I cant give up, no matter how hurt I have been or am.

Though Battered Bruised & Broken, Batty will get there in the eventually