So not put up a proper journal in a while so here goes

Work:
Durham Constabulary ear marked me to train in their forensics division upon my placement as a trainee anatomical pathology technician (APT). This of course would make me estatic was it not for the fact that the high aboves though are aware of this & know they wont foot the bill putting me through uni are dragging their heels.
So Im in limbo atm until Im formally appointed a trainee APT.

House:
I had hoped this was the most secure thing going for me but the best laid plans can go array. Turns out upon an inspection of the garage theres strong possibility it could be condemned as A garage leans too much to the left & B the crack from the driveway leading to the garage has the inspector wanting a second opinion. I put my heart into wanting to buy the place but if the garage is condemned I'll be forced to move somewhere where the bikes will be safe from potential hazard. Unless me & the landlord can come up with a compremise then I dont feel confident in buying the place.

Bikes:
Cutie has her LED indys fitted ( yup had to dust off my v basic electrics knowledge & discovered a huge part of her wiring loom was bodged so I rewired that ) & her new sprocket nut has done trick with clunky gear changing. The other bikes are all ok but sadly Trike has yet to be put back on road as financially I havent been able to.

Legal:
Divorce is being handled by Ex's mother now (shes willing to pay for it as Ive not had the money to ) as apparantly he's suffering depression still knowing legally we're still married ( funny how when he was sticking his cock into another woman that depression I had discovering his lie wasnt factored hmm )
Anyways its simple 2 yr seperation no claims on assets etc. The Decree Nisci should be with me in 2-3 weeks which will be great & huge step forward for me closing that sorry ass mistake in my life.

People:
This is where things have been hard, since I moved 3 friends in Milton Keynes have died, 2 in Peterborough & 1 in Northampton. It has been soul destroying knowing I couldnt be there to say goodbye & to this day though those concerned dont hold it against me & were very understanding I still feel I was a shit friend for not being there.
Besides those who passed away I feel I've lost alot of the friends I used to have when I lived in the South. Despite efforts to try keep communications going it was clear that I wasnt worth investing the time into so had to walk away.
Loosing friends by death is sad, loosing friends by choice is tragic.

This was not helped early this morning at 4am I recieved a call confirming someone I felt was family was gone. From day 1 he was the one I felt most guilty I left behind & now Im paying the price for that.

Health:
Well I been diagnosed with Moderate Hypoglyceamia so having to monitor & maintain my sugars which are affected by certain foods & triggers. There was question about my licence being possibly revoked but the DVLA are happy I pose no risk with the condition upon the doctors reports. Other than the very few who know more indepth about my other health stuff theres not much else I csn say other than Im tiring out quicker & having to force myself to slow down & take it easy had been very hard to adjust to considering I used to be capable of so much much more only 2-3 years ago.

Life up North:
Its cold, had fun riding in snow but its damn lonely. Guess I can only make best of my situation now. Learned alot of tough lessons & still pushing myself in the hope things will get better.
All I can do now is accept the pain of those I've lost, grieve for those gone & care for those still around.

Thats about it

MLH&R

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