I wrote a poem expressing my feelings towards the furry community:

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My heart feels heavy

I'm shaking like a leaf

I don't think I'm steady

But I need some relief

Not a depressed guy

Just woefully confused

Why I ask myself why

These mused feelings have fused



You do what you love

As I tell myself now

But I ride with closed gloves

And I cannot feel how

I'm suppose to work

Along the friends I've made

When the winds are who lurk

Against fingers betrayed



No one's betrayed me

My new friends are so kind

Nervousness may it be

Or I have a closed mind

Still, I remain here

Reasons unclear

Just hear

That I'm going to keep going knowing there'll be a slowing of the clock -- some day.

Some day.

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I want a place in the furry community, but I'm too scared. I've wanted to be a furry for years, and I never thought I'd be so confused in my life. I'm not saying I feel lonely; I haven't been here long and I've already made some friends. But it doesn't feel right..

All I need is to talk to somebody about these feelings. Please send a note or make a comment... It's far from a suicide note, that's guaranteed. I just really want someone to talk to that's had some same level experience.

Thanks friends. :3