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When the shit hits the fan, boy does it hit it...
17 years ago
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Man, when I open my mouth...when I really speak what's on my mind, when I see a picture and leave a comment on it, and then get a response to it, do I have a real habit of tripping the detenator.
Let me explain, I don't suppose any of you
AthenaArctic?, yeah well, I made this one comment to one of the pics she submitted, her mate responded back, at that point...any sensible 22 year-old male would've ended the conversation right there...but unfortunately I wasn't thinking clearly and spoke my mind, which wasn't probably the smartest thing to do, and now I feel what i have started a fight with 
BlazeArctic...one that I am afraid is not easily, or may never come undone.
To say the least I wish for no-ones sympathy, I'm tired of people feeling sorry for me, and I'm sick of feeling sorry for myself, but then again...how can I stop feeling sorry for myself, when feeling sorry for myself is all I can truly feel anymore?
Athena, if you are reading this, I did not mean what happened to turn out like this, if I could go back in time and change any of these past 3 days I would, I guess...I don't know, I feel horrible inside, but what makes it worse is I want to.
I mean I look back on my life, as far back as High-School, I've had nothing going for me, my only high-light I can make out of all of it is that I graduated. I have no job, no girl-friend (Hell, I can't even talk to a girl), and now I'm beginning to think that continuing my education (Going to Technical College) after 4 years might have been one of the biggest mistakes of my life.
Since I don't want to drag this on too long, I just put down what I'm feeling, I feel dead inside...I wanted somebody to love, a member of the opposite gender whom I could connect with, and I didn't care if they were married or not, I guess that's one of my fatal flaws...when someone has something I don't, it just warps me into this 'Jekyll/Hyde' type jerk, you and blaze have every right to hate me, I don't blame you, and I don't ask for your sympathy...unlike my stories, there seems to be no glimmer of hope for me.
Let me explain, I don't suppose any of you
AthenaArctic?, yeah well, I made this one comment to one of the pics she submitted, her mate responded back, at that point...any sensible 22 year-old male would've ended the conversation right there...but unfortunately I wasn't thinking clearly and spoke my mind, which wasn't probably the smartest thing to do, and now I feel what i have started a fight with 
BlazeArctic...one that I am afraid is not easily, or may never come undone.To say the least I wish for no-ones sympathy, I'm tired of people feeling sorry for me, and I'm sick of feeling sorry for myself, but then again...how can I stop feeling sorry for myself, when feeling sorry for myself is all I can truly feel anymore?
Athena, if you are reading this, I did not mean what happened to turn out like this, if I could go back in time and change any of these past 3 days I would, I guess...I don't know, I feel horrible inside, but what makes it worse is I want to.
I mean I look back on my life, as far back as High-School, I've had nothing going for me, my only high-light I can make out of all of it is that I graduated. I have no job, no girl-friend (Hell, I can't even talk to a girl), and now I'm beginning to think that continuing my education (Going to Technical College) after 4 years might have been one of the biggest mistakes of my life.
Since I don't want to drag this on too long, I just put down what I'm feeling, I feel dead inside...I wanted somebody to love, a member of the opposite gender whom I could connect with, and I didn't care if they were married or not, I guess that's one of my fatal flaws...when someone has something I don't, it just warps me into this 'Jekyll/Hyde' type jerk, you and blaze have every right to hate me, I don't blame you, and I don't ask for your sympathy...unlike my stories, there seems to be no glimmer of hope for me.
BlazeArctic
~blazearctic
i appreciate your enthusiasm. but the way you went about it was all wrong epic phail. especially the way you typed the first comment to my reply, which kinda made you look like you were going to keep at it and try to get with my mate, which we are happily engaged. Ppl need to learn that we are in a closed relationship and that no one will have a chance at even a date with us while we are together. Just like another dude who's being a total asshole, which is also about to get his balls bitten off cause she is really irritated when ppl try to hit on her, and it makes me even more mad when i'm already mad about it and they make her mad. so, in short, dun try anything, dun even imagine yourself and her together -or you with me- cause it'll never happen. we love eachother to death, and we are closed. I'd really appreciate it, and it'd help if i not get mad at ppl cause my heart condition
