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Chapter eleven - Envy & F.O.M.O.
11 years ago
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Omg, I'm tired of HR :(
Yes I admit it I'm affected by the, so called, Fear Of Miss Out; I get sick emotionally especially when is about the furry events, I've been missing lots during these years, in my own country too, I'm not thinking about EF or AC; I just had some close occasional meetings (one day-last) and somes with single nice guys; what's the deal? my folks are "scared" by furries, so they told me not to hang out with them/you guys*.
Nothing and nothing just some tears, a lot of pain and, long story short, I've almost lost my positivity, my happiness, my will to do effort for furries. I also thounght about leave this damn animal related stuff...but Ive got a mission, I want to work on the benefit** of you guys (and not only you).
What's Fear Of Miss Out? if you haven't checked it out somewhere, I can tell you it's esentially that motherf***ing feel when you miss an appointment, a meeting, something you care about, even cuz you know perfectly that people (and friends) have fun there. I've related it with "Envy" for two simple reasons:
I I'm still quite envious
II Fomo easily involves envy or jelaousness (and vice versa)
I'm luckly "seduced" by a furry, he's far from me but we're not in love yet. He's so kind to me and, of course, I wish he'd be here with me to hold me tight and tell me that "everything'll be fine"...nope! no goddamit one I can share my feels with, not like I whish to bring them down but, you know, love them and share what's left of my good self.
My other friends are ok with me, and so am I with them, but not all can/would understand me, the ones that know about furry are half helpful; just to say one is keeping on say I'd stop be so kind and cool with most of my fur friends, another guy is shifting the attention on the relation I have "face-to-face vs virtual". I can just thank them and sight, carrying on.
I wont stop my mission, I'm givin my lifetime to this, but hard times are hard! I can hust hope this pain will make me stronger emotionally without loosing my good self, my kindness.
Btw, for the news I'm in the second academic year, I've passed all the exams, ecept for one I'm gonna take this year, without loosing any year. About job, I'm disoccupated. About Art I'll post some scraps but nothing relevant atm.
*I've got kicked out of home once because I brought home a furry for a night.
**inner benefit emotions, relationship, motivation and some more fields
Nothing and nothing just some tears, a lot of pain and, long story short, I've almost lost my positivity, my happiness, my will to do effort for furries. I also thounght about leave this damn animal related stuff...but Ive got a mission, I want to work on the benefit** of you guys (and not only you).
What's Fear Of Miss Out? if you haven't checked it out somewhere, I can tell you it's esentially that motherf***ing feel when you miss an appointment, a meeting, something you care about, even cuz you know perfectly that people (and friends) have fun there. I've related it with "Envy" for two simple reasons:
I I'm still quite envious
II Fomo easily involves envy or jelaousness (and vice versa)
I'm luckly "seduced" by a furry, he's far from me but we're not in love yet. He's so kind to me and, of course, I wish he'd be here with me to hold me tight and tell me that "everything'll be fine"...nope! no goddamit one I can share my feels with, not like I whish to bring them down but, you know, love them and share what's left of my good self.
My other friends are ok with me, and so am I with them, but not all can/would understand me, the ones that know about furry are half helpful; just to say one is keeping on say I'd stop be so kind and cool with most of my fur friends, another guy is shifting the attention on the relation I have "face-to-face vs virtual". I can just thank them and sight, carrying on.
I wont stop my mission, I'm givin my lifetime to this, but hard times are hard! I can hust hope this pain will make me stronger emotionally without loosing my good self, my kindness.
Btw, for the news I'm in the second academic year, I've passed all the exams, ecept for one I'm gonna take this year, without loosing any year. About job, I'm disoccupated. About Art I'll post some scraps but nothing relevant atm.
step into the fire of self-discovery. This fire will not burn you, it will only burn what you are not" *I've got kicked out of home once because I brought home a furry for a night.
**inner benefit emotions, relationship, motivation and some more fields
