For Academic Purposes... lemme know what you find.

... for a second there, I thought you were giving up the stuff.

Oh god no--but my methods have changed, and for now I'm still figuring things out--like a clumsy teenager with my own body.

the problem is out side of that game COC, i dont know what it is you were into that your not any more.
but the 'hands touching me all over.' part make me think of those smut books that people say mum's read, there kinda famous for having fabio extra with no top on on the front covers, quite a lot of them were donated to my primary school
other student "what you reading?'
me '<.< >.> nothing'
teacher 'do you even know how to read? you seem to not know anything about those books your reading.' (haven not even looked at the books them self)

other idea
maybe some role play, were you take it slow. type about the foreplay of taking off the clothing, running hand's, just, touching, extra extra. i used to do that when i was learning to get my typing up to speed so i could reply in time in chat rooms, and found i liked it.
you can meet people who once you set what your after and not will play them out (how to talk out of ((rp)), how to **emots extra), i would tease the rp out. anyway so maybe something like that were you use your mind and just build up. but i guess we are also talking about an explosive release. and that were the real 'this is a fettish.' 'oh, god' comes in. and thats were your not finding you like the same stuff as before?

i cant really say anything with out knowing those, just be careful of people falling for the idea of you when you put yourself out there. it never works out as friendly/ nice.

Oh various gods--I hope I'm not going to have to resort to romance novels. The English scholar in me recoils at the thought.

I'm not sure if RP is all that viable for me. These days, the only thing that gets me going is when I feel honest-to-goodness actual attraction towards me.

hehaya~ , *sigh.* for some reason a lot of stuff has lost it's appeal for me unless it feels romantic as well going on 2 years now (I'm kinda losing track of time on that), i still read at pg lvl, of stuff i used to read just for the kink. so I'm now into sweet sentimental tales?,
these days i will watch romantic movies but they brake my hart TTnTT I've been thinking of watching My Girl, it made me cry so much when i was little and I'm wondering if it would completely destroy me now,

but yeah RP is a massive minefield, your going to find just as meany people who want to just get off as you would to continue to look for a nice romantic story but if you find another person who can think out side of the box (drum snare ) you kinda get to know each others... tricks. but who's going to go unicorn hunting in a sea of spunk.

i liked getting the other person to stop going to the next 'get it done' step, these little things like touching there bodies- hair, smelling, small kisses, pressing in, flexing and staining, slow wave wrapping around them, and then point out i had not taken anything off yet. (hahahaha)
i don't think i ever got off to it though out side of warm 'yeah this is nice', it was mostly finding out what i was into, and working on the fly to get them excited.

Huh, well there you go...

Yup yup

Oh god... the porn folders becoming obsolete. I remember when I basically just deleted everything because it was all useless to me. As for new material, I'm sure I could dig something up if given some time. The truth is though, that I'm pretty much not into any porn these days, so I've also lost most of my old sources, but I still have one or two I could look into. If I find anything, I'll shoot you a note with some links.

On the plus side, I'm about to have a TONI of hard drive space.

There ya go! Room for more games, more music, and more movies!

Romantic movies which are starting to become more and more watchable.

Oh god yes. I'm a huge sucker for romantic anime too.

Hey, did you ever get that last e-mail I sent? If that pair of jeans was interesting to you, I'd like to send 'em to ya.

Oh geeze--that's why! I could not for the life of me reminder why you were sending a picture of a pair of jeans--I thought you were just showing off

Note me if you like them, silly.

XD I'm such a derp.

*snugs* Just wanna help you score some nice things to wear.

Looks like there are somethings about your brain that are fundamentally changing that you didn't anticipate then. Where you expecting this at all? Would knowing this ahead of time have figured into your decision about transitioning?

There's a 1/3 chance of complete reversal of sexual preferences going in. It's been interesting!

As for actual suggestions, would standard Japanese Yaoi be a good one?

Because I forgot to respond to the message:

Ah, good to know that didn't catch you off guard. Sometimes knowing just how much your mind is affected by your body can be scary.

I'm actually accustomed to chemical changes in brain and personality now. I've been getting my brain fixed over the past couple of years, and it's helped immeasurably. I just want prepared for this one.

You could ry to write your ow, bounce it off someone~ or roleplay!

I may just have to. It's that or head out and date and stuff

Date? Ew...
TIME TO WRITE PORN!

Hard to get off to your own stuff, though. I read it back and it's just proofreading, not erotic.

Damn...
Why not try doing a story trade with someone?
Or trading a story for art?

I have further complications that make RP difficult without a lot of personal connection to the person.

Yeah but if tjey write a story about what you like, and you draw them a pic in return, no rp is done ^^