I don't know how much more of this I can handle. I'm going through a very rough time in life right now and school is just making me feel helpless. For the first time ever I am considering dropping my AP calculus class just to save my GPA, stress, and NHS membership. On Friday, one of my few good friends was in a very bad car wreck caused by hydroplaning into a fence. The barbed wire on the top of the fence made it through the canvas roof and would have cut his head off if he wasn't looking up at it. He hit a fence post which slammed his head into the steering wheel, knocking him out. After that, the airbag went off and shot him back into the seat hard. Now he's in the hospital, barely able to talk and unable to see through his swollen eyes without prying them open. He's improving but he was one of the few people I felt I could trust and now I can't really talk to him anymore. I just went to see him in the hospital today and he was just removed from the critical condition ward. I got home from this whole thing at 9:30 and now have several hours worth of calculus to finish and history that will keep me up very late at night. I literally haven't gotten to do anything fun for the past two weeks because of the calculus. Then I go to school only to have my calculus teacher saying I'm not trying hard enough. Add onto this all that my parents are threatening to take away my computer (literally the last chance I have in succeeding at this class) for the rest of the semester and you have a pretty close idea of how I'm feeling right now. I'm feeling so overwhelmed right now that I'm almost to the point of tears writing this. It's my last year of high school and I'm spending it contemplating whether or not I'm able to finish what I've worked so hard to reach for.