I put $400 worth of heating oil into my boiler on 12/13. That was 20 days ago. Not even 3 weeks. $400. Four. Hundred. Dollars... And now I'm out of fuel again. I can't do this. That comes out to an average of $133/week. That's $570/mo just to heat my one fucking bedroom flat. Let me repeat that just so it sinks in... It is going to cost me $570 to heat my one bedroom flat every month from mid-October until mid-March. That means over the whole heating season, I will be paying nearly $3000. I can't afford that shit. I could be working a full-time $40k/year job and I couldn't afford that shit. Between rent, electric, cable/internet, and fuel,my monthly expenses for the colder months will be up around $2k/mo, and that isn't even including misc expenses like gas and food...

I hate to say it, but I think living on my own has defeated me. I was expecting expenses, but nothing in the ballpark of $19 every day just to keep my apartment at 70 degrees. I'm not sure what I'll do. Probably freeze half to death over the next couple months, finish out my lease in September, and then bugger out and go back to living with mommy. If that isn't emasculating enough on its own, her new husband will make sure I have nothing resembling testicle matter left after a week living with them.

My house is already down to 57 degrees and the heat just cut out at about 1am, so I'm estimating freezing temps within a day or less.