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Chapter six - darkness and light
12 years ago
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Omg, I'm tired of HR :(
Hello guys! I'm here to wish you all a happy Christmas time! whenever you are or you fell. I'm sure you'll deserve it.
...I'm afraid, afraid of the period I'm in and about the 24/25 of December I'll pass, it could be my first cold Christmas.
During the past weeks my relationships are going up and down, there are a lot of your guys who are supporting me, others seems to be more and more a little less friendly than what I used to know; I just want to be friendly to all.
However, the biggest matter is the relation with my folks and relatives. I've had argues with my parents, due to my life choices, to my lifestyle and even to my personality! looks like I'm just a small brat who can't deal with reality, friends and strangers...In short, my folks doesn't like me, at all.
Seriously, I can admit my problems, my limits but they're asking too much, they ask me to become someone else I'm not, to become a damn soul-less office robot, to achieve my studies/work target and not to "waste time". I find this hurting so I don't feel at home with them, any more...and this 24th wont be the same. Relatives just tries to keep the status quo telling me to understand the situation, to understand them and speak speak speak (in this case I find it useless!); screw that!
I was scared and pissed off, at first, then I meditated* on this and I looked for compromises; you know what? I'll keep on gettin better, in every part** of myself, in my weak sides and in the "strenght" ones! no more usless enery wasted for energy-sucker people, at least the ones I have to deal in real.
I'll find a way out, because I'm strong! stronger than this!! stronger than what they say, I'll fix my broken pots and wash away the milk I spilled and, if I'll need, shed tears in silence.
I'm not gonna give up, in ANY POSSIBLE WAY!
I wont be alone, even if folks don't want me to meet furries I'll keep in touch with you. In addition I have angels close to me, like my sister who cares of me, my sweet sister, I love her, I'll always be on her side! she really can look into my soul and understand my feelings.
I'll find peace with family members sometime later and I wont regret anything!
Artistically speaking I'm working at pencil and I still find hard to turn my pics in digital so I'll see waht I'm able to do, otherwise, I'll post them on the scraps if they wont be ready in time. I'm workin also on my long tales; anyway I'm free for any commission/request!
Funny fact, in this period I inspire myself from two opposite subject, the 7 deadly sins (can't tell you why, right now) and angels/archangels and other angelic orders ^^...light and dark.
*I do indian meditation
**work out on my body, care of my home, care of my behaviour, my studies, art and much more!
...I'm afraid, afraid of the period I'm in and about the 24/25 of December I'll pass, it could be my first cold Christmas.
During the past weeks my relationships are going up and down, there are a lot of your guys who are supporting me, others seems to be more and more a little less friendly than what I used to know; I just want to be friendly to all.
However, the biggest matter is the relation with my folks and relatives. I've had argues with my parents, due to my life choices, to my lifestyle and even to my personality! looks like I'm just a small brat who can't deal with reality, friends and strangers...In short, my folks doesn't like me, at all.
Seriously, I can admit my problems, my limits but they're asking too much, they ask me to become someone else I'm not, to become a damn soul-less office robot, to achieve my studies/work target and not to "waste time". I find this hurting so I don't feel at home with them, any more...and this 24th wont be the same. Relatives just tries to keep the status quo telling me to understand the situation, to understand them and speak speak speak (in this case I find it useless!); screw that!
I was scared and pissed off, at first, then I meditated* on this and I looked for compromises; you know what? I'll keep on gettin better, in every part** of myself, in my weak sides and in the "strenght" ones! no more usless enery wasted for energy-sucker people, at least the ones I have to deal in real.
I'll find a way out, because I'm strong! stronger than this!! stronger than what they say, I'll fix my broken pots and wash away the milk I spilled and, if I'll need, shed tears in silence.
I'm not gonna give up, in ANY POSSIBLE WAY!
I wont be alone, even if folks don't want me to meet furries I'll keep in touch with you. In addition I have angels close to me, like my sister who cares of me, my sweet sister, I love her, I'll always be on her side! she really can look into my soul and understand my feelings.
I'll find peace with family members sometime later and I wont regret anything!
Artistically speaking I'm working at pencil and I still find hard to turn my pics in digital so I'll see waht I'm able to do, otherwise, I'll post them on the scraps if they wont be ready in time. I'm workin also on my long tales; anyway I'm free for any commission/request!
Funny fact, in this period I inspire myself from two opposite subject, the 7 deadly sins (can't tell you why, right now) and angels/archangels and other angelic orders ^^...light and dark.
have a merry Christmas and a Happy new year*I do indian meditation
**work out on my body, care of my home, care of my behaviour, my studies, art and much more!
