Didnt get the job, but of a stinker but ho hum least got another one in basildon on Monday to focus on.

Yeah good session with A last night, discovered alot about me and why I was how Ive been for past few months and with Robin.

That said she suggested a comprimise idea to talk to him about and try in light of this, well was complete waste of time even mentioning it to him as I thought but she seemed to think quitely highly of her perhapes overly enthusiastic idea and I maywell have a conversation with my chinchilla about the history of harley davidsons!

So yeah from that session despite what he thinks I am, tells people or does to me I have calm. So much was answered about me last night it was a real eye opener and Im so relieved Im not this awful person I was told I was and thus started to believe I was.

Thus my biker buddies have all rallied round and gone "Cindy feck 'it, you are so wonderful, so beautiful and loving tge fact you even tried and kept trying and got nothing for it you are worth more than that! You are precious! It's his loss at the end if the day you're living for the moment and given up on wasters because you are are now living for yourself like the Cindy we all know whose barmy living caring loyal and damn right batty thats who we love, if people cant love you for you or be bothered bolloxs to them youre one of us and will always have your family here!"

So yeah thats my phrase -I'm precious and Im gonna hold onto that and no one will be able to take that from me.
Im so greatful for my biker fam and buds for supporting and loving me ^_^