3 days after my discharge from hosp Im still in shitloads of pain damn painkillers taking their sweettime to work!

It'll be while before all the periteneal fluid gets reabsorbed into my system so atm i feel preggers carrying 150ml of fluid in my pelvis and the burst cyst needs time to be reabsorbed too.... Fun >.<

Psycologically Im a mess, Im not coping well with things as well as I should be and the constant feeling of being alone in pain and scared of being hurt again is a heavy burden on my heart.

Which leads me onto my next point. Appears friends or friends of friends have felt the need to start sniffing around as if I have a vacancy sign above my head!

Guys Im very hurt going through a very difficult time attempting my best to try to carry on the last thing I need right now is being pestered bombarded with messages asking me out ( amongst some who were just wanting sex with me.)

I'm not interested in that and have replied on an individual bases to them all very nicely thanks but no thanks.

However among all that I had requests to use Fruitloop or Rebel in porn.

Therefore I will announce it now so I dont keep getting asked again and again,

If you wish to use either of my characters for pornography just give me a heads up Im very open and unless Im very against the context nature of it I usually wont mind at all.

Thinks thats all that needed addressing and I covered everything.

Last message, if you love someone hold them close, treasure them, enjoy the closeness , smile and laugh often, go for walks site bu lakes have picnics but most importantly appriciate the little things they do that make you happy because once you loose that its a heavy void to carry in your heart.

Peace

Loopy