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...scary dreams and ninja's o.O
18 years ago
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Wow I haven't had a nightmare is some months. And it was pretty scary and it feels strange that it scares me. Felt like I was tripping out in some way.
I ealier on wasn't feeling very good, I was feeling angry and fustrated and had silent trantrums with myself before I fell asleep. The dream itself only lasted for a few seconds. In the dream I was just begining to draw on OC (Open Canvas). I was going to draw something super cool this time I could feel it. As I first began to block out the shape of and arm in a hand, I felt as if I was being watched from behind. I began to feel terrible anxiety, I couldn't turn aroud. Even though I had just begun I began to feel that my drawing was wrong in some way, that I was dawing it wrong and I was going to get in big trouble for it. Sure enough as I began to give detail to fingers the computer screen began to flash red and white like a strob light and the words, ' this image is incorrect', ' you are prohibited from drawing this image' appeared on the screen appearing and dissapearing before I could read all of it. As I continiued to keep drawing my anxiety grew and grew. I stopped drawing, I couldn't move my body, my eyes were glued to the screen. I awoke with a start, still seeing the dream I stayed still hugging my covers keeping as still as I could, barley breathing.
I tried to pray but "damn" I couldn't remember the first part of the prayer. Just kept repeating 'damn I can't remember,damn I can't remember,damn I can't remember'.
Keeping my eyes low I looked about my room for the t.v. remote. Now and then my eyes would freeze on some point in the darkness, seeing something fightening. It took me a couple of minutes to tear my eyes away and continune looking and some more minutes to finally find the remote. I turned on the t.v. I kept expecting my dream to appear on the set so my nightmare countinued. I actually held my hand up to my face as the images faded in. (geez I was freakin) Just then an anime character with HUGE ASS ANIME EYYYYES! WAS STARIN' ME THE HELL DOWN!! I shivered badley *shudder* And after that I was stared down by a scary lookin' ninja and I said "no ninja no" out loud. That was actually humerous but I was still freakin'. Well thought I'd share my thoughts.(pretty long though) The thought that I can't draw or having some kind of block bothers me. Maybe I'm trying to hard or something.
I ealier on wasn't feeling very good, I was feeling angry and fustrated and had silent trantrums with myself before I fell asleep. The dream itself only lasted for a few seconds. In the dream I was just begining to draw on OC (Open Canvas). I was going to draw something super cool this time I could feel it. As I first began to block out the shape of and arm in a hand, I felt as if I was being watched from behind. I began to feel terrible anxiety, I couldn't turn aroud. Even though I had just begun I began to feel that my drawing was wrong in some way, that I was dawing it wrong and I was going to get in big trouble for it. Sure enough as I began to give detail to fingers the computer screen began to flash red and white like a strob light and the words, ' this image is incorrect', ' you are prohibited from drawing this image' appeared on the screen appearing and dissapearing before I could read all of it. As I continiued to keep drawing my anxiety grew and grew. I stopped drawing, I couldn't move my body, my eyes were glued to the screen. I awoke with a start, still seeing the dream I stayed still hugging my covers keeping as still as I could, barley breathing.
I tried to pray but "damn" I couldn't remember the first part of the prayer. Just kept repeating 'damn I can't remember,damn I can't remember,damn I can't remember'.
Keeping my eyes low I looked about my room for the t.v. remote. Now and then my eyes would freeze on some point in the darkness, seeing something fightening. It took me a couple of minutes to tear my eyes away and continune looking and some more minutes to finally find the remote. I turned on the t.v. I kept expecting my dream to appear on the set so my nightmare countinued. I actually held my hand up to my face as the images faded in. (geez I was freakin) Just then an anime character with HUGE ASS ANIME EYYYYES! WAS STARIN' ME THE HELL DOWN!! I shivered badley *shudder* And after that I was stared down by a scary lookin' ninja and I said "no ninja no" out loud. That was actually humerous but I was still freakin'. Well thought I'd share my thoughts.(pretty long though) The thought that I can't draw or having some kind of block bothers me. Maybe I'm trying to hard or something.
last nightmare think was the fear and thought of dieing alone in isolation no one around ready to die alone with no one around to help or know i was missing.