I have always thought that you should be qualified for a job in order to do it. That dose not mean that if you are person doing something creative as a hobby you shouldn't do it. I am saying to people is if it is a hobby keep it a hobby don't make it your second job. I can say in truth I started out not knowing what I was doing in my profession, but I learned and moved up to a professional standard.

Now I have my standards that I hold to myself,and only myself because everything I have done in my mind is crap. I can be told time and time again that I am good, and that my work is wonderful and I wish I could shoot like you. We are our own worst critics so have to learn to grow past that.

Over the past 15 months I have been working on a plan to start my own business. Now that I am getting ready to put it into action I see that I have grown bitter over others who try to step into my field, and even to pros who I find are using there name more than there tallent. This thinking has got to stop this month I spent hours planing how to take out an amichure run rental studio in Kensington. This person I have become scares me and I need to brighten my look on others and on life I spent so much time working on getting to where I am that I can not soil it with being negative. My negatives belong in the darkroom and I prefer the well lit.

So rules I have to obey to be more of a positive person
No more using the word idiot unless receding to some one in politics
I have to be more sportive of other people's work and stop obcessing Bout what is wrong with the work.
No more using the phrases "see you in six months" or @ you get what you pay for" only use " it is you decision "
Stop venting to people that is what a locked door and a pillow are for.
Stop being hard on my own work and try to see what others are seeing.

If I go by this I should become a more positive person or I will go completely insane.

Big long rant about my life over