The future of my family really scares the fuck out of me. A lot. My aunt, mom, and grandma are all unemployed. Don't know if my aunt's ever had a job, mom hasn't had one in a decade, and grandma hasn't had one in about six years or so. I don't have any problem with my job, but it's stressful as hell to be the single person in a house that's actively working to make money. The rest of em make disability and that's all they get. >.<

I get scared as fuck about school, wondering if it'll ever pay off in the long run, given my family's dirt poor status, and wondering if I'll even get approved for any loans down the road. They'll probably look through family records and tell me to piss off if they see how my grandma's handled her loans.

If/when I do finish school, I worry about moving out. I would love to do that, but I'd be leaving them practically on their own with just their small income, so right now I feel like that'd be a selfish thing for me to do. We got evicted awhile back and we're living with a friend of ours that retired from his work, so it's not all bad, I suppose. Still, if anything happens to him, shit, where'll that put us?