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The gloves are coming off...
14 years ago
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You know what; I'm done.
I'm tired of trying to be friends with people.
I try to make friends with people for the sake of being nice, to broaden my horizon. And more often then not, I'm introduced to creepers, liars, or people who just want to sleep with me.
You know what I'm done with this shit. I just want to meet normal people. I know people have their kinks, their mannerisms, how they personally act, and etc.
The fact of the matter is, I don't know what makes people think that it's okay to assume that now that you talk to me, we're friends; and that you can start acting "yourself" and it turns out you're a fuckin' freak.
If I get one more random note about people I've never met before telling me that they're hard and want to have sex with me. Of if I have one more person confess their undying love for me even though they've never met me, or if I have one more person tell me some deep dark secret that makes me feel uncomfortable cause if I tell what I really think about you, I'm the asshole.
So MANY of you don't realize you do this. That you're surrounded by people who accept this. That when I call it out, I'm the jerk who doesn't understand you. I'm not RPing anymore cause no one and I mean NO ONE can RP with me without eventually telling me that they now have feelings for me.
I'm tired of listening to people tell me about their sexual adventures, with how many people they have slept with, then when the rumor that you're a WHORE comes out, you're depressed and don't understand why.
I know I owe people money, and I'm sorry. If I had the money, I would pay everyone back. I was unemployed for EIGHT MONTHS. I work a part-time job while trying to pay off rent, a defaulted credit card, a defaulted Kay Jewelers account, a defaulted school loan.
If you didn't have the money yourself, why did you commission me? I'm sorry that I couldn't deliver your pronz for you. I'm an up-front person about things if you're democratic about approaching me. Constant note asking me for a refund is NOT GOING TO MAKE MONEY MATERIALIZE IN MY WALLET. I know I owe you money.
I'm not going to stare myself any more than I already am. I have about $900 a month in bills and I make about $1100 a month. That remaining $200 a month goes to a 94 Jeep Grand Cherokee that gets 13 miles to the gallon and costs me $80 per tank to fill. And that since my job is 30 miles round trip, I have to fill up about every week. I have to borrow money from my mother for gas money and I steal deli meat, or eat 5 hour old food I'm suppose to throw away from work just so I actually ate something for the day.
I'm tired of trying to be the nice guy, I'm tired of holding back my truthful opinions simply for the sake of not offending you.
You want to be my friend, be normal. Nothing more. You want to chat with me, have a normal conversation like you would with your mother. Cause I would HOPE that you wouldn't talk about how you've been practicing your new Varka toy from Bad Dragon on your asshole to your mother.
But I guess I'm being silly.
So...
Who wants to chat?
I'm tired of trying to be friends with people.
I try to make friends with people for the sake of being nice, to broaden my horizon. And more often then not, I'm introduced to creepers, liars, or people who just want to sleep with me.
You know what I'm done with this shit. I just want to meet normal people. I know people have their kinks, their mannerisms, how they personally act, and etc.
The fact of the matter is, I don't know what makes people think that it's okay to assume that now that you talk to me, we're friends; and that you can start acting "yourself" and it turns out you're a fuckin' freak.
If I get one more random note about people I've never met before telling me that they're hard and want to have sex with me. Of if I have one more person confess their undying love for me even though they've never met me, or if I have one more person tell me some deep dark secret that makes me feel uncomfortable cause if I tell what I really think about you, I'm the asshole.
So MANY of you don't realize you do this. That you're surrounded by people who accept this. That when I call it out, I'm the jerk who doesn't understand you. I'm not RPing anymore cause no one and I mean NO ONE can RP with me without eventually telling me that they now have feelings for me.
I'm tired of listening to people tell me about their sexual adventures, with how many people they have slept with, then when the rumor that you're a WHORE comes out, you're depressed and don't understand why.
I know I owe people money, and I'm sorry. If I had the money, I would pay everyone back. I was unemployed for EIGHT MONTHS. I work a part-time job while trying to pay off rent, a defaulted credit card, a defaulted Kay Jewelers account, a defaulted school loan.
If you didn't have the money yourself, why did you commission me? I'm sorry that I couldn't deliver your pronz for you. I'm an up-front person about things if you're democratic about approaching me. Constant note asking me for a refund is NOT GOING TO MAKE MONEY MATERIALIZE IN MY WALLET. I know I owe you money.
I'm not going to stare myself any more than I already am. I have about $900 a month in bills and I make about $1100 a month. That remaining $200 a month goes to a 94 Jeep Grand Cherokee that gets 13 miles to the gallon and costs me $80 per tank to fill. And that since my job is 30 miles round trip, I have to fill up about every week. I have to borrow money from my mother for gas money and I steal deli meat, or eat 5 hour old food I'm suppose to throw away from work just so I actually ate something for the day.
I'm tired of trying to be the nice guy, I'm tired of holding back my truthful opinions simply for the sake of not offending you.
You want to be my friend, be normal. Nothing more. You want to chat with me, have a normal conversation like you would with your mother. Cause I would HOPE that you wouldn't talk about how you've been practicing your new Varka toy from Bad Dragon on your asshole to your mother.
But I guess I'm being silly.
So...
Who wants to chat?
but seriously just ignore those people.
And I'm tired of doing it. From now on, I'm not going to be that guy, you start being retarded to me, I'll tell you you're being a retard and list the reasons why. If you don't like it. Too bad.
That's because you RP with horny gay furries. I've had some random gay fur say he wanted to fight my wife for me, and I'm straight.
Thankfully, among the gazillion weird/freaky/attention-whore people I've met some real jewels with whom I'm happy to be friends with ^^
All that said, I still absolutely agree with what you said and you shouldn't bother the slightest with people who make you tired/pissed. Block button on-line ^^
Is it because I made this journal?
Cause you never once noted me in the past to chat with me. So why now?
Oh, and don't post any IM handles. Make people earn that shit.
On the plus side, it's taught me to be more of an asshole when appropriate instead of just being terminally nice.
I'm normal, I guess. I don't go talking sexual things all the time. I make jokes, but thats about it ._.
I like friends and people to chat with..don't RP either.
I'm about to give up on thinking that there are any furries I want to chat with.
I mostly just talk to my best friend since grade 6 and my mate.
The extent of my talking with other furs usually is commenting on journals or pictures because a lot of them turn into real creeps as you said.
Idk why so many people in the fandom seem to be so...creepy :/
They kinda block off the normal ones who make amazing friends. And then all you can find is the ones that only want to talk to you so they can get off or something like that.
I mean hell, most furs I know, their only friends are people from this fandom. That's pathetic.
I do find that kind of pathetic...Funny how I kinda assumed everyone had friends outside the fandom.
As for me, I tolerate and sometimes participate in overt sex talk but I'm never the one to initiate it. Aside from some crude humor, I don't just assume a person wants to cyber or is receptive to romantic advances. Probably wouldn't want to roll with me, either, as I am quite an opinionated hothead who can get really nasty when the temper is lost. I feel bad for your RL plight though. Here's hoping you find light at the end of the tunnel.
Oh, wait... yea, I kinda see your point. I've been unwell/busy/both (it's been changing >.<) as of late, hence my lack of presence online... heck, I'd have coloured that pic you did for me if the shit hadn't hit the fan >.<
I'm as normal as anyone is gonna get ^_^ Well... despite being a generic introverted western otaku... or something >.>
*giggles* Nothing I do is an act. Well, I say that, I mean in terms of the way I am. All my characters are aspects of me, so even if I pretend to be someone else, it isn't. It's all me.
LOL, confessing undying love to someone you've never met, or even seen, is creepy... I hope they back off...
Eheh, are you really that good at RPing that people fall for you? I find that very hard to believe... weird dumbasses like that could do with their internet being cut.
Well, it's your lucky day... I confess... that I have nothing to confess =3 I'm not going to hurl around supposed big secrets because a) I don't have any, and b) if I did, I wouldn't be a dumbass and hurl them around like freebies.
*note to self* The bank of VC is closed!
...wait, why am I noting that? You don't owe me anything! *bins note*
LOL, you really don't wanna know how I talk to my ma XD
Hmm... chat... chat... who wants to chat...
Oooh! Oooh! I do! *waves and jumps around like a little kid*
=3 Sorry, I'm in a silly mood today.
I'm here for the art and just to talk with people.
You know, I miss talking with you. Though, I wasn't sure if you were ever online. *tilts her head*
If you ever feel up to chatting sometime, I think you still have my info. *smile* If not, I can certainly provide it to you again if you'd like it.
Take care Darlin. <3
you deserve better interactions.
I like to think I deserve better as well. I just realize that I'm more-than-likely looking in the wrong place.
As for things going on in my life. As bad as things seems, I know it can always be worse. I have a roof over my head, I can't complain about that.
And hey,great attitude to have :) keep that up.
I have feelings for you now!
Hang in there bud, things should get better, take care now.
Shazam.
btw I saw your front page and congrats on getting to your weight goal