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18 years ago
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I feel like I'm really torn. I moved down to Arizona at the beginning of last December. Prior to this I've lived my whole life in Wisconsin, always within just a couple hours of my family. I grew up getting together with my family on just about every holiday, we'd have a get-together every month or so. Now, it costs me a few hundred bucks and lots of time in the air in order to see them.
That hurts me. I never really thought I cared a whole lot for that family thing. It never seemed hugely important to me. But now I see how much I miss it. I've told people that I didn't care for a lot of my family... that was a lie, though I don't think I knew it at the time. I look at it now and I realize how much I wish I was able to be with my family, though money and work are prohibitive on that. I also miss all of the friends I left behind. I still talk with most of them... but some I have barely seen in the past year or two.
The logical choice is to move back to Wisconsin, right? If only. I've made some real good friends down here, too. I know that if I move back to Wisconsin, I'd miss them as much as I'm missing my WI friends right now. And I have family down here, too... though honestly only one that I see on any form of regular basis - my cousin. He and I enjoy hanging out. Or, at least, I enjoy hanging out with him and he doesn't seem to object to it. I have a job down here... a fairly good one, too. On top of it... I hate Wisconsin winter. It was one of the chief motivating factors for me moving away. I made the decision in October - or was it November? I don't remember. Either way, it was nearing the winter season... and I knew that I'd despise that. Freezing temperatures, snow, ice, salt on the roads, blizzards... no thank you. And the summers.. ugh. Humidity off the scale. 115 degrees here feels cooler than the 85 in WI. I'm serious. It's much more tolerable.
I don't know what to do. It hurts to sit where I am, and I know that either way I go with this decision it'll hurt me still.
PS: no, this is not an emo sympathy rant. Just trying to unload all of this stuff off of my chest, hopefully help get a better idea of what to do by getting it all out there.
That hurts me. I never really thought I cared a whole lot for that family thing. It never seemed hugely important to me. But now I see how much I miss it. I've told people that I didn't care for a lot of my family... that was a lie, though I don't think I knew it at the time. I look at it now and I realize how much I wish I was able to be with my family, though money and work are prohibitive on that. I also miss all of the friends I left behind. I still talk with most of them... but some I have barely seen in the past year or two.
The logical choice is to move back to Wisconsin, right? If only. I've made some real good friends down here, too. I know that if I move back to Wisconsin, I'd miss them as much as I'm missing my WI friends right now. And I have family down here, too... though honestly only one that I see on any form of regular basis - my cousin. He and I enjoy hanging out. Or, at least, I enjoy hanging out with him and he doesn't seem to object to it. I have a job down here... a fairly good one, too. On top of it... I hate Wisconsin winter. It was one of the chief motivating factors for me moving away. I made the decision in October - or was it November? I don't remember. Either way, it was nearing the winter season... and I knew that I'd despise that. Freezing temperatures, snow, ice, salt on the roads, blizzards... no thank you. And the summers.. ugh. Humidity off the scale. 115 degrees here feels cooler than the 85 in WI. I'm serious. It's much more tolerable.
I don't know what to do. It hurts to sit where I am, and I know that either way I go with this decision it'll hurt me still.
PS: no, this is not an emo sympathy rant. Just trying to unload all of this stuff off of my chest, hopefully help get a better idea of what to do by getting it all out there.
