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16 years ago
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A wise man once said, "Man lives a life of quiet frustration, and dies with the song still in his heart." God am I feeling that right now. There's so much I want to say, yet so much I know I've got to keep trapped inside, probably for the rest of my life. One of my greatest fears is to share my innermost thoughts with those I trust, only to be violently rejected and dismissed as creepy and worthless.
It's one of the reasons that this gallery has been around for a month but has remained nearly empty for that entire time. Believe me, I have ideas for new artwork! Do I ever have ideas. Yet I don't want to put them on paper, because I worry that I will be rewarded with contempt from not only the garden variety hecklers, but individuals in this community who I deeply respect and can't afford to alienate.
If you ever wondered why I'm so distant and reclusive, this is the reason right here. I dread the thought of making friends who will stab me in the heart later, because I've disappointed them or haven't lived up to their standards. The most logical response is to withhold my friendship from those who seek it. Friendship ultimately leads to betrayal, and I just can't deal with that pain.
I wonder about all the other members of the community who draw pornography, and cub art in particular. How do you force yourself to do it? The interest is clearly there, but how do you work past the guilt and the self-loathing and the risk of rejection from your peers and just make it happen? I just don't know if I have it in me. I thought creating an alternate account would help, but it hasn't made the situation feel any less impossible.
If you've ever thought about getting into the babyfur community, don't. It's the most frustrating, humiliating, and irreconcilable fetish there's ever been, short of sticking your dick in a light socket or wearing klan robes to an NAACP meeting. You'd be better off dropping an anvil on your nuts.
It's one of the reasons that this gallery has been around for a month but has remained nearly empty for that entire time. Believe me, I have ideas for new artwork! Do I ever have ideas. Yet I don't want to put them on paper, because I worry that I will be rewarded with contempt from not only the garden variety hecklers, but individuals in this community who I deeply respect and can't afford to alienate.
If you ever wondered why I'm so distant and reclusive, this is the reason right here. I dread the thought of making friends who will stab me in the heart later, because I've disappointed them or haven't lived up to their standards. The most logical response is to withhold my friendship from those who seek it. Friendship ultimately leads to betrayal, and I just can't deal with that pain.
I wonder about all the other members of the community who draw pornography, and cub art in particular. How do you force yourself to do it? The interest is clearly there, but how do you work past the guilt and the self-loathing and the risk of rejection from your peers and just make it happen? I just don't know if I have it in me. I thought creating an alternate account would help, but it hasn't made the situation feel any less impossible.
If you've ever thought about getting into the babyfur community, don't. It's the most frustrating, humiliating, and irreconcilable fetish there's ever been, short of sticking your dick in a light socket or wearing klan robes to an NAACP meeting. You'd be better off dropping an anvil on your nuts.
I only reveal my babyfurness to those I really trust, and so far, I've been accepted. And I've accepted many others. I know I don't draw, but I do write.
It just has to be one of those leaps of faith, I guess. But think about it. If people didn't want to see this kind of art from you, then they wouldn't have watched you.
Hope this helps.
Xane
If Alex Reynard, who has written stories involving cubs, scat, snuffie, living garbage girls, and Satan, can have legions of adoring fans who do not judge him, you sir can rest at ease regarding your art.
Most importantly, realize that the people who WILL denigrate your artwork DO NOT MATTER. 99 times out of 100 they are not adoring fans who are suddenly repulsed, but people who go LOOKING for art to be disgusted by.
Most of your fans will be like me: I desire to see ALL of the ideas you want to put to paper, and if I see something I don't like, I CLOSE THE WINDOW AND SPEAK NO MORE OF IT. Even unwatching you would be overreacting, and most won't even do that.
How did I work past the shame of posting cub porn? First stories I wrote, I posted only to CubCentral's private section, figuring that anybody who cared enough about cub porn to make an account there wasn't going to be uptight about what I wrote. Then, here, I figure anybody who doesn't filter things marked Adult, and goes and reads/views my stuff, deserves what they get, whether that's losing their lunch or gaining a boner.
So, I know I wrote a nice little essay here for you, but I hope it helps in some way. I'm sure you'll come to terms with it the same way many other people have.
You're on a furry site. The entire point of the site is to allow creative expression.
And no matter how deranged or horrible what you want to post is... I can tell you RIGHT NOW that I could do an FA search and find things of equal or more extreme caliber.
There is a definite social limit of what is "acceptable"... But you're not in public. You're on the internet.
Agreed; I have stuff already on my hard drive that would probably be more extreme than what Frisky would post.
*cough* Ahem?