Being Neurodivergent (Vent/rant journal)
a year ago
General
For those who don't know, I'm Neurodivergent. If you're curious, it's mild autism, Dyslexia and mental problems and if people want to know what it's like? It varies from day to day, but for the most part, it's sad and lonely due to these problems back in school. I wasn't allowed to socialise with other kids, so yeah, it stunted my development for about five years, so that sucks.
Due to this, today, I have no IRL friends, only Internet friends, and sometimes I wonder if they really are my friends or if I'm a burden on them. I've also developed more problems from this: very low self-esteem, insomnia, bouts of depression and fantasy-prone personality, which isn't really that bad. Still, it has caused me to talk to myself a lot as different characters, probably one trauma away from going full-blown multiple personality disorder.
I do look back at my school life and wonder how different I would have been if my development wasn't stunned. Am I happy with who I am now? Sometimes I guess
I'm sorry to anyone who watches me for the pictures and stories. I just wanted to get this off my chest and let you all know more about the person I am.
Due to this, today, I have no IRL friends, only Internet friends, and sometimes I wonder if they really are my friends or if I'm a burden on them. I've also developed more problems from this: very low self-esteem, insomnia, bouts of depression and fantasy-prone personality, which isn't really that bad. Still, it has caused me to talk to myself a lot as different characters, probably one trauma away from going full-blown multiple personality disorder.
I do look back at my school life and wonder how different I would have been if my development wasn't stunned. Am I happy with who I am now? Sometimes I guess
I'm sorry to anyone who watches me for the pictures and stories. I just wanted to get this off my chest and let you all know more about the person I am.
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Am sorry things have been like such for you when growing up, I wish the best for you and wanting you happy... But it's good to let this be known, to get it off your chest.
But yeah, I know how having that stuff can be, I had Dyslexia an ADHD, still do a bit, never had irl friends either so I feel ya, but again wish best or you, know you are cared for. <3