So making this journal for what is going on, but it is a post I had done at discord in referring to a post on facebook. It will be in quotes.

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"So it is kind of that time again to use my discord to inform the people in here of what is happening in my life and... well what is primarily really going poorly.

I am simply going to post my facebook blurp before I actually write something new.


'So we just got the news of my father's biopsy to see what is going on with his cancer... and in light of his recovery and things starting to look better, the cancer has overall ranged. It has changed from Follicular Lymphoma to Diffuse Large B Cell Lymphoma. This is a Richter's Transformation from his previous cancer to this one.

The plan that we have is ultimately the same... get my father healthier, have him go to rehab proper PT, and get his body stronger to handle treatment to help manage his cancer. But as we got informed today this is a much more severe case and the treatment does need to be more aggressive to manage it.

But there is a lot going on, sadly this situation is us having to take it 1 step at a time.'


So with this stated now... my father has been in the hospital for 4 weeks. He was admitted originally for a stomach problem, but it has turned into situation where his Cancer has become very active and is now more aggressive and different from before. Fact is... I am not sure what to say or do about this now. I am trying to be optimistic about the situation... but there is nothing to be optimistic about. If things go according to plan and my father is able to recover, then he has 5-10 years possibly to live. But if his body is unable to recover... it could be possibly as little as 6 months to 1-2 years.

I just do not really know... I do not know if there is really good alternative treatments for him, I do not know if like that Rick Simpson oil stuff will happen, I do not know if anything can really help him in this situation.

There is a fine line in staying positive and being stupid when trying to be optimistic... I am not sure what side of the line I am on now."

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As of now... it is hard to do art, I just started, and well... I do not want to stop. I do have another picture to post and such and I need to just practice and get back into the flow. Everything that has been going on has just made things hard. I have not lost my dad or anything yet and there is still a fight that we are at the start of... I need to do the things that make me happy in light of the problems.