a day i can say ive never had. no cake no friends no presents nothing... since birth i was a mistake a broken condom that was spit out and to top that off i was a drug baby. if you dont know. thats when your mom did so much of a drug te baby gets addicted and i was addicted to fucking meth on birth. honestly. this day is just a number counter and even more so now showing that ive suffered and am going to suffer with no end.. 3 decades on this planet. never had a single real friend a family i could love and no ne to rely or care for or helll just to be loved....i guess im just here to suffer for the mistakes my parents couldnt live with they made and use that mistake tell its dead or they never see it again.. and this is why this day of all days fills me with such dispear and misery and is why i wish i wasnt here. the time for most that they get to think of themselves is another day im worked hard and nearly die every year so i cant be reminded.. whatever im screaming and begging to the void but please dont wish me anything. save those for people that can be saved. i lost my chance when i was born and turned into nothing more then a child slave for those who couldnt take responsibilty for there actions and 30 years later still cant and are so close to snuffing the life they brought into this world but as they say " i brought you into this world am ill take you out " i just hope they do it soon to the pain and syffering i endure ends finally.