i will keep fa for now. no reason to just jump ship but in general. lifes going to kill me at least ill die with a bed and a roof no matter how bad those and the hell spawn i call a family are around me. soon enough they will be in the ground and ill have to pick up the pieces of whatever life my family destoryed and try to get my body my mind and my life stably even if the last almost 30 years of my life withthem is full of abuse neglect and troment... at least i can say they never used me sexully... plus i guess after two weeks without any food would make you start seeing things a bit differnt even as i type this im so weak light head and about to pass out.. either way. i die out there or i die in here.. at least with one. they have to see what they caused. the other they can just shrug off and pretend there little mistake never was a thing in the first place.... anyway in short. im staying ome and onFA.. for now.