You ever have that feeling inside about the past that seems closer than you really think? I went through old photos of my family, my ex, and me picking some out for wall pictures or a digital frame. I think I was to into my subconscious because I felt almost in those moments. I started to laugh at a few and others I was like man that was a great time. I saw myself at a lantern festival, saw my self in karate and other places and thought back about how different the times were. It is comforting in those moments of being back in a place where you felt like you knew who you were. Future is scary but I think I should start taking more photos. My dad used to take photos everywhere and I appreciate that now more than I did back then. I looked at myself and was actually kind of proud of what the ten year old me would have said to the now me. Maybe I'm not a racecar driver like my NASCAR mind would have gone to but I think going for a psychology degree masters and working 40 hours a week has a toll of value of its own. I think he would have been impressed that he wasn't as different in the bad way that he made himself out to be. Maybe yeah he could have talked to more people or done something different in the long run but.... That wouldn't help the now me thinking like that. I know that I'm doing the right thing for me and maybe he would have appreciated that a lot more his senior year of highschool. I found that living in the past is stagnating for me in that I just want to live in that denial of progress to be safe in my own world. I'm glad though that I'm really not doing that and trying to find new ways to grow. However a good memory is nice every once in a while reminiscing I think is the word? Anyway have a goodnight

Be Safe,
Flurry