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3 years ago
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I think I'm going to be retiring these accounts for the foreseeable future. At the very least, after the current work I've commissioned is finished and paid for, I think I'm done commissioning NSFW.
I feel like what I want from commission work tends to be too specific, and just irritates/angers artists I work with.
I try very hard to be accommodating and try to compensate folks for the extra effort, but it seems clear that I'm more trouble than I'm worth. Which tbh? Fair. I've always been very particular, and due to stress and ADHD I have trouble keeping on top of communication at times and that doesn't help matters much.
I think a reflection on my FA and Twitter over the last 4-5 years, I see more stress and anxiety than I do actual excitement and joy, and that sucks, but such is life. I can imagine it was my own crippling social anxiety and struggle with social cues that led to most of the issues I had in the first place.
In any case, this account will be private in about 3 days. If you love any of my stories I've written and posted, now's the last chance to download and save them to your PC to read. IDK if I'll be bringing this account back anytime soon.
I appreciate all the support and love that the work I have created myself has gotten over the last 5 years. It's nice to know that the stuff I like resonates with other people. I also appreciate every single artist I've worked with, and the work you've created for me, even if we ended up parting due to my own overly particular nature.
I feel like what I want from commission work tends to be too specific, and just irritates/angers artists I work with.
I try very hard to be accommodating and try to compensate folks for the extra effort, but it seems clear that I'm more trouble than I'm worth. Which tbh? Fair. I've always been very particular, and due to stress and ADHD I have trouble keeping on top of communication at times and that doesn't help matters much.
I think a reflection on my FA and Twitter over the last 4-5 years, I see more stress and anxiety than I do actual excitement and joy, and that sucks, but such is life. I can imagine it was my own crippling social anxiety and struggle with social cues that led to most of the issues I had in the first place.
In any case, this account will be private in about 3 days. If you love any of my stories I've written and posted, now's the last chance to download and save them to your PC to read. IDK if I'll be bringing this account back anytime soon.
I appreciate all the support and love that the work I have created myself has gotten over the last 5 years. It's nice to know that the stuff I like resonates with other people. I also appreciate every single artist I've worked with, and the work you've created for me, even if we ended up parting due to my own overly particular nature.
Also, if you are commissioning people, you're paying them for their work. They are getting compensated for their work, and you're allowed to ask to changes and such. If they didn't like the idea, they can always say no.
You've been enjoyable and your stuff always made things better <3
I hope you don't make the account private. But it is your account, your art (commissioned or self-crafted). Your choice.
Go find your hapiness.
Hopefully, we can meet again in the future.
Your art is great: I hope that you'll reconsider privating your account - it's a joy to read and it'll be a great loss seeing it gone~
I can relate a lot to having really particular kinks/kink scenario's and not easily being able to find them, or find a way to express how I love them. (granted that may be in big part thanks to my being on the Autism Spectrum and/or not getting enough free-time/good environment to focus on it.) I don't know how it feels to negotiate with commissions or an audience, haven't really been there before, But it definitely does sound stressful.
One last thing, I don't consider you to be "More trouble than you're worth" in the slightest, and I hope you don't really feel that way about yourself, for either the struggle to express your ideas and passions with others, or your anxiety. If you do, that's ok. I'd hope you feel better soon. (or at least relatively soon)
Be kind to yourself, safe travels, and I hope you have a damn good one.
If by some chance you log back on and see this and are interested please don't hesitate to contact me or reply to this comment! I can give you my discord and we can talk about what I have in mind :)
Other than that I wish you luck on your mental health and I genuinely hope things get better for you in the future.