Letting go.....
My cat is not doing well. He's in pain from arthritis, his seizures are back, he's wheezing when breathing and he isn't eating much if at all right now. He's not himself anymore and I just cannot see him in pain. Sadly the Vet is not open or available till Monday and also want my brother to be there for this also so trying to set it to when he is off work hours so he can be there to say goodbye.

Our can Ru has been by my side through so many hard times in my life. At home, he is like my best friend and family all rolled up into one. He would always listen to me when I needed to talk while he purred, giving me nuzzles and begging to get petted. He also would know when I was having a hard time and was depressed as he would come up to me put his paws on my leg and purr so loud to get my attention. He was a lot of my support mechanism at home.

Sadly until I move out of my parent's place or have a job where I can afford to be on my own will likely not be able to have another pet. Sure my mom has a dog but the pup and I don't get along great at times. So sadly Ru maybe my last pet for a long time. Gods how I will miss him but I know I have to make the hard choice and do what's best for him (I don't want to see him in pain as he means too much to me and to see him miserable is going to kill me this weekend).


Sorry just venting and letting it all out.....so sad right now and this is not easy with my depression issues but I have to do this for him no matter how much it kills me inside.